AW: Was denkt Ihr gerade? (27)
Wenn man sich trennt,waehrend man sich immer noch liebt.
Von Can Dündar
You will notice that your house is too narrow to fit you inside of it
you will jump up to street
Also streets will be narrow for you
Just like your body is narrow for your heart
The blue of the sea will not please you nor the shining sky
You will get too bigger to carry yourself , At the same time you will get smaller to get lost
Someones gonna tell you something non-stop
'the most important thing is the healt'
'its nice to be alive"
"Nevermind everythings gonna be forgotten" etc etc
And you will hear none of them
You will not be able to see around because of the tears
You will hate her/him as you want him/her to die,a minute later you will love her/him so much as you want to die in her/his arms
You will want to talk about her/him always
You will not ask 'what did you say?' if they say 'the solution for death has found' or 'Doomsday is tomorrow'
You will want to be alone
To get lost in the crowded
Both will not be enough
You will think about the past
Moment by moment
But with skipping the bads (memories)
You will want to pass from the places that you have been with her/him
to go places that you have been
it will not be good for you at all
But you will still do it
You will run away if someone say that you can rip off the pain inside you
You will resist to live the pain though you want to survive
You will want to spend your life time by thinking about her/him
You will hate the people who says the opposite
You will make everyone like her/him
But you will not replace her/him
Nothings gonna discract you
You will shelter to drugs
That cloud your mind for couple of hours but not make you forget about her/him
That just makes you watch behind a frosted glass
It wil be like whole songs has written for you two
Your throat will get knotted and you cannot listen
It will be hard to sleep,easy to wake up
You will not wait for morning
And sometimes you will say 'i wish the sun would never come up'
The nights will not make you comfortable nor the mornings
You will want to die but cant
maybe you will want to hug someone that shows up as thinking 'nail would replace the nail' *
but no
Even the thought of it will not be logical to you
You will see dreams that you want them to come true
You will notice that you are saying his/her name everytime you wake up by jumping
You will wait the phone to ring
Even though you know he/she wouldnt call
You will get excited everytime it rings
You will talk to who calls you. like you are crying
Your heart will be ache
You will get hurt
You will swear not to love again
You will not want to do anything about the life
You will die to hear his/her voice again
You will hate yourself for not thanking the days that she/he has called
You will want to leave the city that you are living in
To move to place that you have no memories with him/her
But the hope
The hope that bump into each other somewhere
This hope will keep you of going
You will live in ebb and floods
Sure ...if you can call it 'living'
Do you accept all of these ?
Are you ready to die and to return to life again?
Then you can fall in love
